Meeting Doodles

It's day 30. My hug count is still at 12. I now present you with a combination of my favorite things and least favorite things.

The Opposite of Hugging

I had plans to travel home to Evansville this past weekend with hopes of big things for this blog. A rare sighting of me hugging my parents. Something I haven't done in over 10 years, if not longer. Well, to make a long story short, the hugging didn't happen. To make a short story long, this is what did.

Saturday evening we had a family dinner. My mom cooked dinner while my sister and I made fancy champagne cocktails. I was setting the stage for the big event. I was going to whisper the idea to my sister and hand her my phone to capture video evidence. One cocktail led to several, and said hugging didn't happen.

Sunday morning we had breakfast with the grand idea to make beignets because scrambled eggs wasn't going to cut it for such a momentous event. At this point in the story, I'm still the only one that knew about the hugging plans. That's the way my mind works. Until I tell someone else about it, it's not really a plan, and therefore I'm not stuck to it. Now back to the beignets. We apparently never passed that frying indoors in the winter class because that oil got hot and smokey and all the windows were shut tight. This perturbed my father immensely to the point of demanding my mother, sister, and I "Shut the operation down."

2 things here:
1. I've never really seen my dad get that mad in person. I've only heard tales of it.
2. Cooking breakfast had now become "an operation".

We didn't shut it down. We turned the oil down, finished our beignets (which were amazing), and cleaned up our mess. Meanwhile, my father was walking through the house slamming doors and mumbling things under his breath about us being stupid. He ended up not talking to us the rest of the day so the whole hugging thing didn't happen. I didn't even get a goodbye. Just a side eyed glare which I'm pretty sure meant, get the hell out of my house and take this damn oil smell with you but use my gas card if you need because I still love you (I added that last part in and used it. Because I knew he'd want me to, even if he was mad.)

This is not the sad story of a girl who wanted a hug from her dear father, but didn't get one. So my dad got mad, big deal, he'll get over it. I'll eventually get that awkward, what was I thinking, how do I hug my dad again, is it okay to pat his back, hugging moment.

For now, the tally is still at 12 hugs on day 27.

National Hugging Day

Tomorrow, January 21, is National Hugging Day. Believe it or not, there is "an official" National Hugging Day website. It states, "...National Hugging Day always suggests at least asking first." Words to live by for those that aren't a fan of hugs.

I guess my mom was on to something when she requested my sister and I say, "I'm ready to hug," before doing so. At least we gave fair warning.

For those of you interested in the site: http://nationalhuggingday.com/

For those of you interested in hugging me, well, good luck finding me.

19 Days and 12 Hugs

Maybe hugging is like trying vegetables. You don't like them because you don't want to like them, but really, you've never actually tried liking them. Take brussel sprouts for instance. Growing up, I hated brussel sprouts because my siblings hated them. I never really tried to like them. As an adult, I gave them a fighting chance and it turns out, I love them. Could hugging be similar?

I attended a baby shower over the weekend for some friends I haven't seen in a few months. I used to see them on a weekly basis during kickball season. Once winter hit, we all seemed to go our separate ways. I've never hugged these friends before because it never felt appropriate. But there was something about seeing someone with a giant baby bump that felt like I couldn't possibly say no and go in for the handshake. So I did it. I went in, both arms spread wide open. And guess what. It wasn't horrible. In fact, I hugged her when I left also, and two other people. That makes 6 hugs in one day. 8 if you count the soon to be born baby. Which I don't. Because that kind of weirds me out.

To break down these hugs: Full frontal for the pregnant friend. One handed back pat for her boyfriend. And a sit down side hug to finish off the hugs. I'm still leaning towards the one handed back pat. That way I'm not fully committing, but not fully backing out. It's kind of a win win.

So here I am on day on day 19, and I'm up to 12 hugs. More if you count a certain repeat offender.

This Tuesday is National Hugging Day. I've debated between jumping in feet first and hugging everyone in site (there's not enough liquor in the world to make this happen) or cowering in my office in hopes of not seeing anyone that wants a hug (this is the more likely choice). In all actuality, I think my aunts (see facebook post to the side) are the only ones aware of this holiday. They too aren't the biggest of huggers, but they sure like to give me shit about not hugging. Maybe they secretly want hugs and are playing it cool pretending to not. Sometimes I wonder if that's what I'm doing. Then I snap back to reality and realize, given the choice between hug or no hug, I'd still go for no hug. However, I'm much more likely to hug those offering than I was 19 days ago, I'm just not going to initiate it.

Weekend Update 2

Another weekend without hugs. What do you do when your for sure hugs, don't hug you. Granted I've been sidelined with a bacterial sinus infection this weekend, I still expected hugs. But alas, I was deemed "too snotty" and suggested to " just hug your cat". It should be noted that she too objected.

Fridays and Saturday were spent on the couch with antibiotics and nasal steroids. But Sunday I was able to get out amongst the people. I had lunch with friends and a surprise visit from my parents for dinner. As I explained the concept of this blog to my parents, they kind of looked at me dumbfounded. "So you're posting this on Facebook?", came from my father. And my mom offered a much less sincere, "well we don't plan on hugging you."

I did get a good hug story out of their visit at least. Apparently when my Aunt Ann was headed to the Peace Corps for two years many years ago, my mom, her sister and brother, and my grandparents all stood beside the plane and waved goodbye. You read that right, no hugs. 2 years in Africa, and no hug goodbye, just waves. So there you have it. I have my work cut out for me.

But for now, I have some Golden Globes jokes to crack about the awkwardness of Lena Dunham.

Everything's bigger in Texas. Even Hugs.

I hugged on day 8 and 9, and it wasn't bad. In fact, I hugged 5 times. These weren't strangers. They were clients. Clients that I know are always going to hug and don't have time to hear my bull shit backstory about not being a hugger. So I let it happen. I leaned in and excepted their arms around my body. Hell, I even squeezed back. These weren't puny hugs. These were big bear hugs. Why you might ask? Because I was in Texas, and everything's bigger in Texas, even the hugs (and this rocking chair).

Why were these hugs easier to except? I think because they were no nonsense. There was no time to think about it. They all happened in a matter of seconds. Like a tempo snap of the fingers, 3 hugs went down on day 8. When it came time to leave on day 9, snap snap, hug hug.

On the evening of day 8, I sat in the lobby of the Hampton Inn in Stephenville, Texas, discussing this very blog with my coworker. It's amazing the conversations I've started simply by saying, "Hey, I have a blog about hugging." My coworker had some stories of his own. And let me tell you huggers something, people judge you. Those hugs you're freely giving out, their being judged.

My coworker told me about 2 huggers off the top of his head without being prompted. One wasn't so great. They hold the hug a bit too long. It ends in that awkward moment of one hugger doing all the hugging. The other, very much a good hugger. Perfect amount of embrace, perfect amount of squeeze.

This leaves me 10 days in, and 6 hugs dispensed. While I'm not up to a hug a day, I feel satisfied.

Weekend Update

Day 6 of my 365 quest to be an acceptor of hugs, and there is still only one huggee on my list. Seems kind of sad doesn't it? My weekend was spent deep cleaning my carpets and reflecting about what type of hugger I want to become. Which might be even sadder than I initially thought.

Do I go in side armed, pat the back, rub the back, arms on top, arms through their armpits? How long do you hold the hug? Do you let go first? Was it good for them? Do you talk about it when you're done?

Yes, all these thoughts run through my mind at hugging time. I want to hug with a purpose. I want my hugs to count.

Sunday evening, I had dinner and drinks with some good friends and got into a really good discussion. One that has led me to believe, I'm not alone. There are others out there that aren't huggers. Sure, they may take a hug when it's offered and give an occasional hug to the right recipient, but they're just as awkward about it. Said friends expected no hugs of me upon arriving or leaving, which is how I know they're good friends...and possibly not huggers either.


*Disclaimer: Those of you that do make me hug are still considered good friends.

The Back Story

When I was younger, my mom used to punish my sister and I with hugs. Yes, hugs. We would have to sit on opposite ends of the couch until one of us could say "I'm ready to hug." I blame this for my non hugging nature.

In 2014, I'm publicly pledging to attempt to become "a hugger". We'll see how it goes.

Day 1: New Year's Day, I hung out with my family. Upon saying goodbye, no hugs. Just a wave goodbye and an I'll see you later.

Day 2: A hug for Fred. He hung my blinds after all. Does hugging your boyfriend even count?

Day 3: It's 11:24 and as I ask my coworker about lunch, he mentions needing to start my blog. As of yet, no hugs.

Now the goal isn't to become a serial hugger. I'm not going to hug everyone and everything in site. The goal is to become someone that appreciates a hug goodbye, a hug hello, etc. In my current state, when I see two arms coming to wrap around my body in a warm embrace, I shrivel and squeal like a tiny kitten being held over a bathtub.